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Childhood Cancer, Osteo-Sarcoma & Survival

The experience that shaped how Nicole learned to survive—and who she became because of it.

Nicole Roundy reflects on surviving childhood cancer, losing her leg, and the way that experience shaped her identity. She traces the story back to the radioactive fallout her mother experienced in 1953 Utah.

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Episode guide

In this episode

  • ·Being diagnosed with cancer at eight years old
  • ·The 18 months of treatment that changed Nicole’s childhood
  • ·How becoming a survivor became part of Nicole’s identity
  • ·Her mother’s exposure to radioactive fallout in 1953 Utah
  • ·What happens when the story you believe about yourself is only half true

Episode notes

I was eight years old when I was diagnosed with cancer. I lost my leg. I spent 18 months in treatment. My childhood became hospital rooms, chemotherapy, infections, surgeries, and things no eight-year-old should have to understand.

And then I survived.

Eventually, I became an athlete and competed at the highest level of my sport. I built a career. I became very good at doing the very thing I was expected to do: overcoming

There was just one problem.

I didn’t realize how much my identity depended on it.

I thought the story began with the diagnosis. It didn’t.

It started in 1953, to my mother growing up in southern Utah. She was just five years old when the United States detonated a nuclear bomb in Nevada.

The government knew radioactive fallout would reach surrounding communities. They told people there was nothing to worry about.

Then the sheep started dying.

Thousands of them and my mother was one of the children exposed to that fallout.

And because women are born with the eggs they will carry throughout their lives, the cell my body was eventually built from existed inside my mother’s ovary in 1953.

I’d thought cancer was just something that happened but what if the story you believe about yourself isn’t true? Or at least, only half true?

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